My amazing sister Karen, our friend Naomi and I taking a study break. :)
Secretly, I love it when you trail your fingertips across my bare skin. I love the fact how it is the same delicate touch that you apply against porcelain keys to create that beautiful melody; the same calloused fingertips that grasps the worn-out surface of a basketball; and the same warm squeeze that embraces the crevices between my fingers.
I remember the time you told me that I was fragile, both inside and out, and you will do anything not to break me or cause the slightest crack. Back then, I laughed at you and doubted your words, remembering all the pain that you caused me a few years ago.
But today, as I was sleeping in your arms, the low humdrum dialogues of ‘The Game Plan’ playing in the background, you suddenly pulled me into a tight embrace. I was half-asleep as your hand found its way to my body, your fingers dancing against my skin as if it was made of porcelain and not human flesh. As you whispered sweet nothings into my ear, I knew in that moment that you really do love me. Never in my life have I felt so beautiful. Never in my life have I felt so vulnerable. Never in my life have I felt truly safe.
I just want to fall in love and get it over with.
In Bed: The Kiss
Henri De Toulouse-Lautrec
Oh love it’s a brittle madness, I sing about it in all my sadness
It’s not falsified to say that I found god
Inevitably, well it still exists pale and fine I can’t dismiss
And I won’t resist and if I die well at least I tried
“Spending so many years alone and observant made me learn how to make a relationship work by watching everyone else fuck up theirs. The key is to just be nice to each other, and not be snarky. You want me to get up and get you a glass of water? Of course, my love. You need my help getting through grad school? I’ll do all that I can for you. People don’t need to snap at each other, and sacrifice should go both ways when needed. Love is too important a gift to waste. And that is what I saw… that’s what I learned.”
My friend Cory, to me, when I asked him what he felt he had benefited most from his five years of celibacy. (via turquoisebird)
I whole-heartedly second this.